New poem; written today while waiting for Dad to pick me up from university. 26th May, Inshalla...this nauseating 'semi-confinement' shall finally come to an end. A total detachment, I anticipate. A total detachment from the foreign and unnerving feelings I get, as I walk through the doors; familiar faces, yet all foreign. Unfamiliar faces; unnerving. Raw emotions tearing through walls of steel; crippled by thoughts that relentlessly batter my mind. A victim yet once again. I spare you of my delirious state, leaving you with my latest: 'Invisible'.
Invisible
I watch as they all pass by
Seconds turn into minutes
It's a thought I can't deny
As time is translated into digits
Swarmed by buzzing hornets
A threat to my thoughts' existence
Their deadly stingers an outlet
For those with inadequate resistance
They hover about in swarms...
I stand solitary.
Arising to work like lifeless forms
My gait: Military.
A Horrible Misfit
Everyday spent: confinement so despicable
Hours born of minutes
Devoured by self-hatred: a mere speck...
Invisible.
Wes Salam 3lykm w R7matullahi T3ala w Barakateh
PS. I'm not crazy; I just have a brain kicked into 'overdrive'. ;)
Seconds turn into minutes
It's a thought I can't deny
As time is translated into digits
Swarmed by buzzing hornets
A threat to my thoughts' existence
Their deadly stingers an outlet
For those with inadequate resistance
They hover about in swarms...
I stand solitary.
Arising to work like lifeless forms
My gait: Military.
A Horrible Misfit
Everyday spent: confinement so despicable
Hours born of minutes
Devoured by self-hatred: a mere speck...
Invisible.
Wes Salam 3lykm w R7matullahi T3ala w Barakateh
PS. I'm not crazy; I just have a brain kicked into 'overdrive'. ;)
6 comments:
Salam salaam salaaamon 3alekum. Assalaamo 3alekum.
I am new and this is my first time here.
This is not an attack and you are not crazy...U just need a slap on your head to fix that almost burning fuse.
Just a suggestion blended with a question like honey mixed with lemon. (7ame’6 7elo)
Why the FLOCK are you depressed? I really don’t recollect anything in Islam saying “Oo’ Muslims, Be Depressed, Sad, angry, miserable and gloomy”. Plus, Prophet Mohammed said “LA YATAMANNA A7dukom AL mowt”.
Plus, Allah works in mysterious ways that is beyond your thinking and my thinking. All you have to do in your life is (Have a goal- a tanjble one, something you can actually touch) and continue worshiping normally.
Read LA TA7ZAN (by 3aye’6 Al Qarni) Book- if you haven’t already.
Snap out of it, lighten up and get yourself together, don’t alienate or victimize yourself or else you may end up doing or saying something that would upset the one up there. He sees and listens to everything and everyone.
If you are still depressed, listen to (wordless music) (Al ‘6aroorat tobee7 el ma7’6orat) or watch a comedy channel. If you feel lost, get a GPS or a compass or ask anyone on the street for directions.
P.S. Have you noticed that the label “depression” takes up 54 posts of your entries?
w3lykm as salam w r7matullahi t3ala w barakateh!
Lol, you're not the only one who thinks that way. Fortunately or unfortunately!xD
You know..that line rhymes..poetic tendency, or just a mere coincidence?;P
Yeah, yeah...I know..but he also said: اللهم لا عيش إلا عيش الآخره ..
9a7 wla..?
I had it, and I read that book..fantabulous, Mashalla..loved it..but I gifted it to someone who was going thru my books, and wanted to borrow it. I thought I could buy another copy at any given time...but that time still hasn't come yet!>.<
I've helped people outta depression, yet my own words, all the philosophical talk..doesn't do nothing to help me..Allah el Musta3aan..
Lol, would you believe I find nothing funny in sitcoms? I'll just stare blankly while people are crackin' up..I think most of the sitcoms are lame.
I used to listen to anasheed, but not really a big fan of listening to anything now.=S I used to listen to m7aa'9raat deeniya w droos, bs..dunno..no time, I guess!=S
LOL, see..that's why I'm a stay-at-home-girl. I only go to uni and back, and Inshalla that'll end soon.=D So, won't need directions.;P
Yeah..I've noticed, lol..but that's probably cuz I look at writing as an escape from insanity..it's therapeutic.=)
3l 3moom, mashkoor(a)3lmroor..this blog's covered with dust and mold,bs it was great to receive an enlightening comment; stick around, you never know..you might come across a 'happy' *read as:delusional* post someday!;P
i like the new look, bel barakah!!
it allowed me to come back again, lol
"invisibility" is something i think of when observing those non-Muslims going to work drinking coffee and coming back home tired, as if robots, jus a background, no purpose in life... maybe there is a purpose, but 'useless' purpose!
Though, this thought never passed into my head when I watched Muslims, and I was wondering why the mixed feelings lacking 'enjoyment'.
I really really like the descriptions as I was allowed to put myself in that situation and feeling those things, especially the seconds-minutes, buzzing, and military stance. Wonderful, indeed!!
May Allah give us success in this life and the Hereafter!
lol, shma3na?! The old look depressed you too? My bro refused to check my blog out cuz he said it screams 'EMO' in your face!xD
Yalla Al7mdlla, this blog's been pretty dead with regards to comments..the 'silent reader' attitude is getting on my nerves, quite frankly!xD So it's very 'refreshing' to see a familiar name around here!=D
Ahh, raw feelings to the core..I really hated uni, lol..you might find it hard to believe, but the LAST person I met on my last day was the my English professor..had a nice, long, intellectual discussion with him..something you can't really expect from uni girls..and I felt SO relieved walking out..I didn't even look back!xD
Not that I hated the education..but the atmosphere made me feel like I was plucked from Jannah *3ilm classes* and thrown straight into Jahannam, wel 3iyath billah!>< plus all the Tabarruj of Jahiliyyah, and those unbelievably irritating 'camel humps'..*shudders* Al7mdlla I'm out!=D My 'sanity' has kinda 'returned' after leavin' ADU!xD
this blog's been pretty dead with regards to comments..the 'silent reader' attitude is getting on my nerves, quite frankly!xD <<< join the club, hehehe!!
something I heard from sheikh Abu Is'haq Al-Huwainy: أنت الجماعة ولو كنت وحدك
May Allah make our lives full of happiness ^__^
AMEEN!
Sb7analla, what a WONDERFUL saying!:') The past few days I've been thinking abt how isolated I've become, yet this saying just wiped out all the depressing thoughts.
People say you should make sure happiness comes from within yourself, but it's easier said than done, walla! It's only Auliya2 that never face depression, and it's their IMMENSE love for Allah that keeps them smiling and content in every condition.
May Allah make our happiness SOLELY dependent on His Pleasure..only then will we TRULY succeed fd Dnya wl A5irah!
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