Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Making History

Salam 3lykm

Remember how I always say there's 5ayr in EVERYTHING, even if you don't know what it is when it happens? Well, today - Dec 31st 2008 - is a day I will never forget. Today, after 3 or 4 years of self-torture, I saw the '5ayr' I never saw before - AL7MDULILLAH! Allah works in such wondrous & mysterious ways, Sb7analla!

Oh..and..Hijri new year has already begun, and Gregorian flips at midnight...

May this year be one of contentment, joy, & harmony for us all...*doesn't look like it from current affairs..=(*





ALLAHUMMA AMEEN!

Wes Salam 3lykm w Ra7matullahi t3ala w barakateh

Friday, December 26, 2008

Realization

Salam 3lykm

How are all of you doing, Dear Readers? ^_^ It HAS been quite a while since a blogged anything beneficial for EITHER of us, and that probably has got to do more with the fact that my Iman level has been on an alarming 'low' for some time.

I won't say I'm back to being religious all over again, but what I will say is..Al7mdulillah, Allah gave me the 'tawfeeg' *What's the English word for it again?* to realize many things over the past few days.

I was staring at the title of my blog a couple a days ago, and then I looked at the car posts, poems I wrote recently, and I wondered, 'Where's the connection?'. I read the description written underneath the title, and I imagined what I would probably think if the blog hadn't been mine: 'Is this some kind of twisted joke?'

Lil2asaf eshadeed, scores of Muslims are being massacred in cold blood all over the world, and what are the 'so-called' Islamic countries doing about it? In fact, what are WE doing about it? Let's see, hmm...the Gulf's too busy trying to nationalize countries, and pouring billions of dollars into projects that are meant to 'help them survive after oil runs out'; India and Pakistan are too busy fighting the endless feud over land; Iraq - unfortunately - is just getting screwed over by the US...

لا حول و لا قوة إلا بالله...I better not start a proper post just yet - I'm very fired up these days, and I won't think twice of the possibilities of being caught by authorities. Of course, 'freedom of speech' only exists for those dogs. I've been banned in a forum already for voicing my opinions, labeled as a 'racist' against *and this is the hilarious bit* Arabs. If this is called being racist against Arabs, then please tell me what it means to look up to admiringly at a race? Anyway - إن أكرمكم عند الله أتقكم *Note to self: need to learn how to type the i3rab for Ayaat & A7adeeth*

My family is already on the edge with the two 'volatile' posts I've got up on this blog - Al7mdulillah, I've been protected by Allah so far...but for their peace of mind, I promised I wouldn't be writing anything controversial 'any time soon'.

Anyway, the ONE thing I want to leave you guys with is something that should Inshalla help us all when faced with life's challenges. I've blamed my current craziness on stuff that has happened to me, but really..that's just no excuse. From the looks of it, Qiyameh is right around the corner, and I'm pretty sure I don't have much of what's needed to get through the Gates of Jannah! Need to work twice as hard, and these bouts of 'insanity' are really just from Shay6an..trying to bring me down. *Remind me the next time I'm down, guys - lol..*

Anyway, a part of Ayah 90, Surah Yusuf:

إنه من يتق و يصبر فإن الله لا يضيع أجر المحسنين

Sb7analla..sometimes a human can be so ungrateful, and a quote I read somewhere: Allah gives & forgives; Man gets & forgets. I would start off about ungratefulness with myself, of course...talk about all the whining I do 24/7! >.< style="font-style: italic;"> really don't miss something or value it until it's gone. And then it's just too late.

This is just a quick, scrambled up post before 7deeth class written within less than 5 minutes, so excuse any shortcomings please. Let's hope this is truly a fresh start to life, leaving the madness of my Jahiliyah days behind.
لا إله إلا أنت سبحانك إني كنت من الظالمين

Wes Salam 3lykm w Ra7matullahi t3ala w barakateh

Saturday, December 20, 2008

When I Get High...

Salam 3lykm

How are my lovely readers doing?!:D

After a period of depression, and tears, and what not...today, TONIGHT was MY DAY (or night, whatever!) I was ultra HIGH - and then I ate chocolates, which only took me HIGHER!:D I'm like this chick on pot - got a dreamy, goofy smile on my face, which sometimes turns into a retarded grin!:P So, I share with you some happy posts, a reason why depression is probably a blessing in disguise, cuz can you IMAGINE what it would be like if I were happy all the time?! DISASTER!

This is a conversation I had with a very dear friend after a LOOONG time! Some parts are censored..for...reasons *don't be nosy, y'all!:P*

This is one of Um 3eesa's rare momentos: guard let down & enjoying life to the fullest! Happy Reading!:D

PS. I'm 9a7bt the long, depressive nickname!:P Sadly, emoticons don't show up which kills more than half the expressivness - but the world moves on, and so should you!:P

@hotmail.com says:
how come ur nt in bed

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
ermmm cuz im sittin on my room\s floor?

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I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
cant be in two places at the same time ya know

@hotmail.com says:
looooooool

@hotmail.com says:
true true

@hotmail.com says:
bt i mite -.- why arent u sleepin

@hotmail.com says:
itz almost 4 am

@hotmail.com says:

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
loool yeah

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
you in uae?

@hotmail.com says:
where else would i be at this time

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walla?!

@hotmail.com says:
LOOOOOL

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get your butt down to AD - im not lettin you go without meetin ya!

@hotmail.com says:
loooooooooooool

@hotmail.com says:
AD is too faaar

@hotmail.com says:
-.-

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camel ride?

@hotmail.com says:
hahhahaha t5yaaale

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i think we have cars now, la?

@hotmail.com says:
i knw laaa

@hotmail.com says:
but whoz gona drive me there laa

@hotmail.com says:
thts the problem laa

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
you singin?

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or you turned into a tellie tubbie?!

@hotmail.com says:
loooooool nope i dont sing

@hotmail.com says:
looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool

@hotmail.com says:
i wish waz poo

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@hotmail.com says:
i wish i was*

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you dont want to be somethin so smelly

@hotmail.com says:
looooooooool they're so0 not smelly

@hotmail.com says:
not poop

@hotmail.com says:
POO

@hotmail.com says:
-.-
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poo isnt smelly?

@hotmail.com says:
the yellow telliiiiee tubbbbie

@hotmail.com says:
LOOOOOOOOOL

@hotmail.com says:
u freako0

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
eeeeeeeewwww hes diarrhea!?

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
or baby poo

@hotmail.com says:
loooooooooooooooooooooooooool

@hotmail.com says:
baby poo

@hotmail.com says:

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
yeah

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
tar8eeeem yalla

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
whats your number, babe?

@hotmail.com says:
loooooooooooooool i need to buy one -.- tawny wa9laa

@hotmail.com says:
gimme a break

@hotmail.com says:
gimme urs

@hotmail.com says:
i'll sms ya asap

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loool - a girl whos forward

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ermm lemme think

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for a minute i forgot my number!

@hotmail.com says:
loooooooooooool

@hotmail.com says:
abt?!

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*censored - me digits!*

@hotmail.com says:
LOOOOOOL

@hotmail.com says:
dnt wry i alwayz do

@hotmail.com says:
and i lose it everytime i come bck

@hotmail.com says:
etisalat rb7o0 meenii

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loool

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
la la

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
minniiii

@hotmail.com says:
nice # ;p

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i know

@hotmail.com says:
looooooooool

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
its specially for babes like ya gotta have a nice number to get nice ladies, ya know what i mean?

@hotmail.com says:
go0oly maa y3'laa 3lich

@hotmail.com says:
moo adry

@hotmail.com says:
LOOOOOOOL

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ok im beginnin to freak myself out now

@hotmail.com says:
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

@hotmail.com says:
HAHAHAHHAHA

@hotmail.com says:
am beginning to luv ya even more

@hotmail.com says:

@hotmail.com says:
LOOOOOL *wink wink*

@hotmail.com says:
;p jk

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loooool

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im kinda outta words now

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*think like a guy!*

@hotmail.com says:
looooooooooooooool

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naah, lost the charm

@hotmail.com says:
bas bas enuf for today

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loool

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yeah i need to sleeeep

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its 4

@hotmail.com says:
lo0ol wait till fajr prayer

@hotmail.com says:
o0 namy

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
ma3lay e9alaahhh

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i'm on holiday cuz i have 'guests'

@hotmail.com says:
lo0000ol

@hotmail.com says:
then go 2 sleep -.-

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i shall

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take caaare

@hotmail.com says:
u too

@hotmail.com says:
sleep sweeet

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you toooooo

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
n dont walk outta my life again like that :

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
no really, you're a whole lotta fun - dont ignore lil ol me

@hotmail.com says:
lo000000ol

@hotmail.com says:

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
it leaves less choice for a guy for a night out

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
i like variety, know what m sayin?

@hotmail.com says:
looooooooooool

@hotmail.com says:
nt really

@hotmail.com says:
am thinkin its the effects of ur lack of sleep

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loooll ee walla

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
w the fact that today

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
im exceptionally high

@hotmail.com says:
looooooooooooooooool

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
iv been depressed since a month or so now

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
n today is my REALLY REALLY high day!

@hotmail.com says:
awww *hugs*

@hotmail.com says:
gimme some of tht

@hotmail.com says:
LOOOOL

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yeah so, im livin it up!

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
yeah sre

@hotmail.com says:
i want

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
im goin to sleep anyway"

@hotmail.com says:
i need

@hotmail.com says:
loooooooool kik

@hotmail.com says:
sleep sweeet

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
*takes highness off n gives it to her highness*

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
but be warned - you act really lame n corny

@hotmail.com says:
LOOOOOL

@hotmail.com says:
why thnk u

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
lool

@hotmail.com says:
hahaha its k

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yew tew chickita!

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catch you tomorrow!

@hotmail.com says:
c ya

@hotmail.com says:
tc

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
dont forget to msg!

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
ill be waitin

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
dont call cuz thatll just freak me out

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
loool

@hotmail.com says:
sure

@hotmail.com says:
*censored - verifyin' me digits!*

@hotmail.com says:
loooooooooool

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
THATS the number

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
lool

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
THE number

@hotmail.com says:
hahaha YUP

@hotmail.com says:
the FIRST number to sms

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
you'll everneed while you're here

@hotmail.com says:

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
loool

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
yeah, no freaky callin without msgin

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
or if im asleep, i might swear off at ya

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
n im wrose than a pirate

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
when sleep-swearin

@hotmail.com says:
LOOOOOOOL

@hotmail.com says:
i wanna try tht

@hotmail.com says:

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
loool

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
noooohhh

@hotmail.com says:
yessss

@hotmail.com says:
hahaha i mite record as well

@hotmail.com says:
ahahahahahah

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loooool

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
sin el azrag is a meshkela walla

@hotmail.com says:
loooooool HAHAHHAHAAH

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
soon everyone will hear my not so pg rated sleep swearin

@hotmail.com says:
loooooooooooooooooooool

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
n they'll have it as message tones

@hotmail.com says:
bluetooth...sin el azraaaag

@hotmail.com says:
LOOOOOOOL i just got tht

@hotmail.com says:
HAHAHA omg I AM A BLONDE

@hotmail.com says:
LOOOOOOOOOOOOL

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool

@hotmail.com says:
dnt blame me..its like 4:15 am

@hotmail.com says:
jet lagged and all

@hotmail.com says:
so0 3adiii

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
its ok its ok, you just back from amreeekaaaa - itll take a few days to get back in local pants

@hotmail.com says:
loooooooooooooooooooooool yeah by the time i have to leave

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
or local sirwal no pants, pants for amreeekaan

@hotmail.com says:
sirwaaal

@hotmail.com says:
LOOOOOOL

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
when you leavin?

@hotmail.com says:
i dnt wear saraweel

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
yeah, but they local pants *literally!*

@hotmail.com says:
looooooooooool

@hotmail.com says:
jan 10th

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
afffaa

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
i finish exams w uni w zeft on 8th

@hotmail.com says:
ouch

@hotmail.com says:
everyone chethiee

@hotmail.com says:
and thts wht i hate abt it

@hotmail.com says:
-.-

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
just two days to enjoy with such a fly girl? a man's got it bad

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@hotmail.com says:
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

@hotmail.com says:
OMGGGGG

@hotmail.com says:
u DO need SLEEP

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
i DO!

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
loooool

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
im BSing now

@hotmail.com says:
5blaaa

@hotmail.com says:
loooooooooool

@hotmail.com says:
i realized

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
looool

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
but i could fool all the girls in a chatroom

@hotmail.com says:
U COULD

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
n have em at my call

@hotmail.com says:
no doubt

@hotmail.com says:
HAHAHA

@hotmail.com says:
t5ayaaaaly

@hotmail.com says:
have u done it before?

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
you'll think twice before chattin to a guy

@hotmail.com says:
LOOOOOOOL

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
noooooooo neverrrrrrrrrrr

@hotmail.com says:
LOOOOOOOOOOOOL i dnt chat 2 dudez i duno

*this refers to my past - Jahiliyyah times*
I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
the only thing iv fooled GUYS with is bein 16 17 18 when i really was 13 or 14

@hotmail.com says:
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

@hotmail.com says:
we all done tht

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
bein half emarati half american when i really was just basikthani

@hotmail.com says:
loooooooooooool i hvnt done tht

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
it was fun

@hotmail.com says:
lo0o0o0ol 5blaaaa

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
they were b*atchin racists against my nation, n then just before sayin badBye, i'd tell them..btw suckerrrr you got OWNED - im basikthani

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
n THEN they'd be REALLY interested

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
like mosquitoes unfortunately

@hotmail.com says:
loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool

@hotmail.com says:
it3jbeeeny

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
RAAAIIIIID

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
pif paf too mild

@hotmail.com says:
looooooooooooooool ro0o7y naaaamy

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looool

@hotmail.com says:
its bad to laugh like tht at this time

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walla im DRUGGED to highness

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should save this convo

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
BLOG it

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should i?

@hotmail.com says:
looooooooool yeah u should bas am on ebuddy

@hotmail.com says:
hahahaha

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
of course ill scratch out your email

@hotmail.com says:
yeah hahahah other stuff i dnt mind

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ill just leave the hotmail part

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looool

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
la la, a5af they say hathi m6aw3a?!

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
3fanallaaahhh, whats a 9ay3a then?!

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loool

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LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

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hathyyy m6wa3aaa 9ay3aa

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no i think i really WILL blog it..just to a'3ayyer el depressive jaw there

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omg today my auntii waz sayin smthin abt

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how some girlz are stupid enuf to date their dudez in their own house and not OUTSIDE

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me + my cousin ...were like OMG auntiii arent u m6wa3aaa

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LOOOOOOOL

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date INSIDE?! LLoOoOoOoOooL!!!

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yeah coz fee this story

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this chicka got her dude in their house

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you ready baby? yeah hon..lets go to the mylis

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and her bro walked in ..and saw...and killed el dude

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LOL allah yr7maah

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LOOOOOOOOOOOL

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LooOL OUCH!

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7ilo the date

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wallaaa ...we're like sheno haal 3'baa2

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looooooool oo fee wa7d ma3a this married chickaa

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date-ow bara3 low sme7tow

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b3dain lamaan her husby waz abt to walk in ...he tried to escape thru the balcony

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he jumped and died

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loooooool allah yr7maah

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Allah, romanci

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why am i laughin ma3rf

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LoOoOoOL

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lena its 425 am?

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LOOOOOL maybee

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he tried the escapin romeo move

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i will diiiee for my looove *SPLAT!*

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LOOOOOOOOOOOL ro0o7y bas namyyyy

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BUSTED! in his boxers outside a married woman's driveway

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slightly icky n covered with blood

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LOOOOOOOOOOOOL and his bro waz walkin down the street

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
mashalla

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is that a plane

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hez like meno hathaa elii y8ee6 izbalaah frm up there

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
no its a bird

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
no its

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he died infront of him

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my BRO?!

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not urs -.-

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el bro taab3 el dude elii escaped thru the balcony

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his of course

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loool

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bes he'd think that

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looooool u said MY BRO

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b3333ddd...he thought his bro was zebala?

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LoOoL

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coz he saw smthin fall

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he thought itz a bag of grabage

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garbage*

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in reality, he was whats he doin with a married woman?!

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loooooooooooooooool exactly

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yalla i should goooo

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430am

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ill blog this now

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then go

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hahaahaha nice chit chattin with u inshalla so0on sleep swearing

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LOOOOOOOL

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link link

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loool

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i willi will

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lemme blog it

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i'll blog the recording

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LOOOOOOOOOOOL

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loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool

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t5ayaaalt

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t5alaaaly*

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low it wasnt for sin el azrag, i wouldnt have minded

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t5ayaaly* -.- omg

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hahahaha

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mashalla - who's tellin you to type with your feet after a long haul flight, ha?

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i'll change el voice

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dont you know feet get swollen?

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no1 would knw its u

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LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

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chip n dale voices!

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no they dnt

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hahahah yesss

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they dooooooooooooooo

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my feet dnt get swollen bel plane -.-

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unless you lyin in first class luxury

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loooooooool no economy

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they do, everyone's do

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not mine

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even if just a teeny tiny wonky bit

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you dont notice

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loooooooool nope

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hahaha yeah rite

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bas u notice

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of course

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with my shades i notice everythin

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loooooooooooooooool

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LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

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n the ladies cant keep their eyz of me

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i think thts stupid

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off*

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LOOOOOOOOL

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VERY! you'll see guyZAAT fil mallaat wearin SHADES at NIGHT

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a'3biyaaa2

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i call em guyzaat cuz they look like shemales

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LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

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EWWW

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HAHAHA

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*shakes her head* dementia

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
cheft wa7ed, gelt 7laiiilehh..so young and blind..has his whole future ahead of him

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LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

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3'abeeeeeeyaaaaaaah

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u should've told him that ib his face

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
3gb shway he's doin the whole 5shmek deal with this guy and he removes his shades for it!

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bas t5ayaaly hez really blind

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tht would be soo0o0 MEAN nd rude

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LOOOOOOOOOL

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i was like emf 3laaaiiiik - i coulda shoved him in the fountain

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looooooooooooooooooooooooooooool

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but i felt sorry for the guy who'd go down with him

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mayno0onaah

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so i just walked past n asked mom if its sunny

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
n eyed his shades

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LOOOOOOOOOOL 7elwaaaaaa

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hahahahhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaa

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didnt even look at him - just his shades

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n he got the message - tucked em in his kandora button place thingie midge

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loooooool shn-sawaa?

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LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

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7elwaaaa

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
i gotta do SOMETHIN' if i'm not goin to shop, right?!

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yuuuuup

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plus who asks em to drag me out? i hate goin' out

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oh my

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440am

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thats IT

I make my way into people's hearts - some make place for me & keep me there, most trash it & turn me away says:
gnyt my friend

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looooooooooooooooooooooooool

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ill get off

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blog this

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n sleeep

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XD gd nite sleeep sweeeet

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ill give you the link next time we chat

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or here's the link

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um3eesa.blogspot.com

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ooh i got this bookmarked

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yeah, its been updated btw

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new poems

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ok ok ok ok ok

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bessssssssssssss

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we end HERE.

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take care, me luv *brit*

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looooooooool bbye tc my babe

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will catch ya temorra - be good and OMG i forgot i wrote my number

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will have to erase that too

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loool

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*censored*

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yalla sleep sweeet

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LOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

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ciiiiiaaaaoooo

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sweet dreamzz love

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chaaaawz
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THE END! Notice how many times we said it's time to sleep? We should go? WOMEN! *shakes her head* :P

Let's see how long this 'happy period' lasts!:P OH! --> Guys who wear shades durin' the night cuz you think you look cool: TAKE THE DAMN THING OFF - you look BLIND! -.-

Wes Salam 3lykm w Ra7matullahi t3ala w barakateh!:D

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Hallucinations

Salam 3lykm

Just back from the hospital - have a severe ENT infection, on ABs for 10 days. I don't think I've ever wished to be knocked out like I did today. The pain was just way too much to bear - tears were streaming down my face uncontrollably. I feel like a whuss right now, lol - cried in front of my parents and baby sis...

Anyway, forget that..I wrote a poem while waiting for my turn. I'm not in the condition to be judged, and the hell I care if I am. What frustrates me is that I came back from 7aj, and now..I'm just worst off. Nevertheless, I wouldn't have ever missed it for anything. This poem is not that great, because remember, I'm sick, and in pain, both emotional and physical. So, the last thing I'm going to be 'looking forward' to is a lecture on how I shouldn't write 'unislamic' poems - give me a break. No, seriously...a MAJOR break.

Yes, I'm really trying my best to ignore Shay6an's Damned Whispers, but NO, I' no saint. Yes, I've made major mistakes in life, and NO, I DEFINITELY don't plan to go down the lane again...but this is MY blog, and NO ONE has the right to tell me what I SHOULD or SHOULDN'T write.

This is therapy, and if you don't like it - tough. I'm not holding a gun to your head and asking you to read, am I? I'm grateful to my readers, trust me...there wouldn't be any blog without you guys...but seriously, there really wouldn't be any blog if I didn't need therapy either..lol..

I leave you with my latest, but definitely not the greatest - Hallucinations.

Tell me what I want to hear
Tell me it's all going to be okay
Tell me I have nothing to fear
Forever by my side you'll stay

Hold me protectively in your arms
Hold me and never let me go
Hold me away from all that harms
Wipe away the tears that begin to flow

Promise me the love I never got
Promise me a life of eternal bliss
Promise me this isn't just another shot
From which you'll walk away if you miss

...A strange wetness jolts me back to reality
That's when I realize tears are streaming down my face
I now know I've reached the height of insanity
Hallucinating in this dark and dreary place

WRONG

Salam 3lykm

When I said at least I don't cry endlessly anymore, I was SO DAMN WRONG - and I hate myself SO VERY MUCH right now. Shay6an is breaking me down. I want to sleep FOREVER. I can't take this ANYMORE. The one thing I ask for is to forget everything, not to be affected by it...WHY is it the only thing that seems to be REJECTED every time?

It's KILLING me...slowly...and I can't stop it.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Why...Did You Do It?

Salam 3lykm

I'm back from 7aj y'all - Al7mdulillah it was an amazing experience, and will share more about it in upcoming posts, Inshalla. We stopped over in Do7a yesterday, spur-of-the-moment thing, really...and reached home last night at 1am, al7amdulillah. I'm not feeling well - got the 7aj bug - and I have uni to get ready for >.< Anyway, leaving you with my latest, entitled "Why?":

It wouldn't take a genius to realize
I'm completely lost without you
It can get tiring living a life of lies
Knowing I really have nothing to look forward to

Some have declared that I'm heartless
Others claim I'm just wasting precious time
Does it mean I'm unbelievably obsessed
If I still fail to get you off my mind?

The wound you've left me with is just too deep
My life is slowly bleeding away
My heart & soul are for you to keep
I never needed them after that wretched day

At least my tears don't flow endlessly anymore
Over something that pushed me to attempt suicide
The same thing that's burned me down to the core
...The question to which no one has yet replied...
WHY?