Still Hurtin'

(23rd April 2006)

As years pass by i can still not 4get
i keep wonderin' r things goin 2 worsen yet
all this laughter...these smiles...r a wonderful disguise...
cover up perfectly all tha pain insyyd
these bruises n gashes dont seem 2 heal
as tha days go by, lyf seems 2 b a torturous ordeal
thinkin...wonderin...cryin endlessly...
whyl refusin..resistin...despisin disbelievingly
'tryin 2 grasp tha truth instead of tearin' it apart'
easy 2 say...but HARD 2 do wit a scarred heart
nothin but LIES r hurled around
evrytym truth surfaces, it has been pushed down
no mercy, no compassion has eva been shown..
no love, no kindness has eva been known
drained n exhausted by tryin 2 b brave
tranquility will b met in tha depth of a grave....