This post's dedicated to those who made me smile and grin when I least wanted to; those who stood by me when I knew not where to go, & those who made me see 'the greener side', when I was surrounded by darkness. My Lovebugs.
I left you all, not because I couldn't give a damn about how you felt after I walked away, but because I gave a damn about how I was ruining your timelines. My unhappiness was clearly reflected through the words I used, & instead of brightening up your timelines like you did mine, I was doing the very opposite.
This is my decision; once upon a time, I hated Twitter, yet you made me love it..to the point where I was addicted to it. I tried breaks, which only failed. I tried leaving, which failed too. This time, I plan to make it work. I plan to make it work, because I know returning would be a fail.
I know some of you hate me for it, I know some of you couldn't care less; soon, you'll all be indifferent to my decision, and it'll be forgotten. I'm no deranged, attention-seeking drama queen, and it sucks to be thought of as one. I've always been a loner, and company's something I have never been able to handle. Isolation has always been my refuge.
I don't mind criticism, but I can't stand mockery, and I saw too much hurtful sarcasm being flung around. People say one shouldn't have to explain themselves, yet I'm an open book. For letting you down, I apologize..but I'm just being me. This is who I am; I shun people. I shun them, because they give you happiness & love, then snatch it back when you least expect it. And being a person, I know I probably do that, too. So, I shun people.
It's not a definite solution, and it definitely has its repercussions, but it has worked for now. As my Lovebugs, I only hope you'll understand where I'm coming at. I know you won't mock me, at least. If you want to contact me, there are many alternatives; Twitter was just one of them.
I love you all as my very own, which is probably why I never said 'goodbye'. And I'm not saying it now either, because the mere thought of it has my eyes welled up with tears. As dramatic as it may sound, I have faith our lives will cross paths again, and hopefully this time, I won't run away as an escape.
Rabbi ywaffgkm w ys3dkm dnya w a5irah..<3
8 comments:
good riddance
i hate you um ro'6ah </3
i'll miss you w alla ywfgch..
Matlub naiki ka tu zamana hi nahein hai?
Why leave? its not like you were regular anyways :P
A break is healthy...goodbye forever is not.
i was wondering why my timeline looked different :p miss you!
uhm, yeah bye bye twitter!! i hope i can convince my brother, hehe!!
Anonymous: Your words will always give me the incentive I need, to stay away from Twitter, whenever I think of coming back. Thank you!
Anonymous 2: Don't hate me, not after I explained why I left!D': Keep putting smiles on people's faces, Rashed..it comes naturally to you.='D
Ozzy4freinds: I didn't get the quote, LOL! #Fail x'P Yeah, I only tweeted round the clock.:| I already explained everything in this post!T_T
Anonymous: LOL, you don't have to..I'm still around.<3
Bu Thyab: LOL, don't try to..this is a choice that HE has to make himself..otherwise, he'll be back on again as soon as he deactivates his account!
Yeah..bye bye Twitter, helloooowwwhh Blogger!x'D
Im not sure if you remember me, no need to say names..a tweep.. Anyways, I just tweeted if there was any other way to contact you and they sent me this link. I wanted to tell you the WE MISS YOU. i swear um 3awas we never forgot you, people always tweet " i miss um3awas so much " because we really do. I hope your enjoying your life with bu3awas and mbrook..(not sure if you got married yet) take care love, and say hi to cbubkins! Lol <333
Anonymous: You should've left your name; I would've remembered you! I miss you all VERY much too; you were honestly all very wonderful people, uniquely creative, brightened up my life & TL.:'D I would be lying if I said I don't get the urge to start tweeting again, once in a while..but I don't, cuz I know Bu3awas wouldn't like it.x$
Allah ybark feech w 3gbaalch Inshalla..I AM married, but we're not living together as yet..
Thanks for droppin' by; it's always wonderful to hear from my Lovebugs now & again..:') You'll always find me thru my blog; it's staying for now!
Post a Comment