Friday, December 6, 2013

To Write or Not to Write

Salam Allah 3lykm, 

Life is ridiculously fast-paced; December's already here, and 2013 is about to come to an end in less than 30 days. Surprisingly, my 'inner poet' sprung awake today after a long slumber; once again, all scrambled thoughts. I don't think anyone will be able to understand the actual meaning behind what I've written, which is okay. 

Do I have what it takes to survive, or will this struggle be the death of me? This is taking a heavy toll on my life, and is eating away at my sanity. 
Should I leave, I will probably be replaced. Staying would only cause grief, having left the greatest solace.
I don't want this to be my biggest regret; I need some time to recuperate. As blissful as it might get, it takes great strength to accept your Fate. 
Only ink knows the scars etched into my heart; tales of betrayal, hypocrisy, and hate. 'Reading between the lines' is merely a start; only my Lord knows of my truest state.
Ink spills over as I try to make sense of my internal battles; forming words and sentences snaking like chains and shackles. Do I really gain 'freedom', as I write my troubles down? Or is this just a medium that'll have me shackled to the ground?
Will sentences I write of my struggle, be held taut against my neck? Will my attempt to salvage sanity be the shovel, that buries me under dirt with the dead?
Wes Salam 3lykm w R7matullahi T3aala w Barakateh

4 comments:

Bu Thyab said...

Really honest feelings in the poem which I couldn't understand completely but phrases here and there the reader can relate.

What really stood out from the poem in my opinion was the fifth stanza followed by the final stanza.

"Ink spills over as I try to make sense of my internal battles"

Well put together

Keep it up!

Anonymous said...

Woww! Mashalla loved it :D keep up the good work sweetie ;)

MIB said...

Bu Thyab: I think I would've probably given up blogging, if it weren't for your motivational comments that made themselves at home on my blog. As always, truly appreciated, bro!

I'm SUPER-behind on your blog, though; never thought that being a housewife would tear me away from the 'blogosphere'.

Anonymous: Thank you for the kind words, dear Anon.<3

Anonymous said...

Wow! Simply love the last bit....