Last night was tough on me, but al7amdulillah...life goes on, right? Thoughts just raced around one after another, and mind you...none of them were pleasant. Memories taunted me, triggered suicidal behavior, lol. Fortunately for ME, or unfortunately for those who hate me, I'm still alive.
Anyway, I appreciate the comment a reader left on my 3mra post - really made my day, bro/sis! fa Jzak/ch Allah kil 5ayr fdnya wel a5ira ^_^ I have decided to keep writing, and you should thank my Mom for that, lol...she said I was being selfish, and my niyyah was not right. She told me to think about the people who's lives I've managed to influence positively *al7amdulillah*, and that I should do this with e5la9.
It all started off as therapy, so I wasn't really doing it for anyone else but myself...but then, it somehow became this 'manual' for some people, and a 'novel' for others. I hope others are learning from my mistakes, and at the same time, ermm...getting free entertainment?:p lol..
so yeah, now I have this Niyyah that...I need to do this for the sake of Allah...but then I lose the aspect of 'therapy' in a way? As in, I can't pour raw feelings out here anymore, cuz as a friend put it, ' I feel like I've invaded your mind'...and that's not a very...ermm, nice thing? lol..I don't want y'all to be sittin' there analyzing my mind!O_O *it's not a very pleasant thing to analyze anyway, lol..*
I don't make much sense now, do I? Yeah, that's how my mind currently is...all jumbled up. Anyway, this was just something on the 'sidelines'. Today's post is actually focused on something that has befallen Ummat M7amad...read on, and I hope this benefits you, as much as it REALLY benefited me...as I wrote it! *Still don't make sense, do I?:p*
The Poison of 'Love'
When will I let go of these broken dreams?
When will I learn to face reality with a smile?
When will I learn people aren't actually how the seem?
They always show their true colors after a while
When will these memories stop taunting me?
When will it all fade away?
Will I ever be able to look at it indifferently?
Unfazed by the pain I've felt all these days
Will the tears ever cease to flow?
Can I dream of days when everything will be alright?
Or will it always feel like someone's wedged a poisoned arrow
In my heart, yet out of sight...
The poison's spreading oh-ever-so-slowly
Paralyzing life as it snakes around
Will this poison ever prove its fatality?
...Or is there an antidote that yet needs to be found?
The scenario is that of a girl who's been hurt, played, cheated by human wolves who made empty promises of a happily married life, based on trust and love. As she asks herself all these questions, she realizes she's been tricked by Shay6an, and equates it to being struck by a poisoned arrow. She realizes her heart is void of the essential vitamin of life: Love for ALLAH. Her heart is thus, diseased, and requires a 'quick fix' before it's too late. The antidote is Touba & Esti'3far, for straying away.
This poem is dedicated to all those brothers and sisters who fell trap to Shay6an's evil ways. He traps even those who try really hard to stay away from fwa7ish. He makes you think, "How else are you going to get married?", "Hey, it's OK to mess about; you'll probably end up marrying him/her anyway" , but the most DANGEROUS one of ALL: "You're doing this to save yourself from 7araam; as long as you stay away from physical stuff, it's OK"
It's NOT OK; no matter HOW harmless a platonic relationship might sound, you don't get GOOD out of something that's forbidden by Islam. It eventually leads to sexual references, and then things just go downhill from there. There was a reason why Islam prohibited intermingling of the sexes..and no, it wasn't because Islam is an oppressive religion.
Unfortunately, Ummat M7amad صلى الله عليه و سلم has been struck by something WORSE than plague - illicit relationships. This is partially our own doing; we tend to make what's 7araam, 7alaal...and vice versa. Elkuffaar mayg9roon 6b3n - they happily inject toxins via Cable TV, music, literature...you name it, and they probably use it to spread fitn w fwa7ish in the Muslim Ummah.
I direct these questions to the brothers who mess around with their Muslim sisters...
What do you gain out of it? Is it worth a Muslimah's modesty? Is it worth her SANITY? Is it worth tarnishing her reputation for the rest of her life? Is that momentary pleasure worth the damage of a lifetime?
If your answers are NO, then...your actions contradict your words, and if your answers are YES, then I ask you ONE more question:
Would you allow male strangers...no wait, forget them..your own FRIENDS, to derive the same pleasure from your female family members?
Would you allow male strangers...no wait, forget them..your own FRIENDS, to derive the same pleasure from your female family members?
If your answer is YES, magder agool illa Allah y3eenhn - w you definitely need an MRI brain scan...but if it's NO, then how can YOU rob your sisters in ISLAM - a relationship that's stronger than a blood relationship! - of their INNOCENCE? How can you ruin their lives heartlessly, knowing they're someone's sister, daughter, or mother?
Lil2asaf eshadeed, some of our misguided brothers yft5roon eb the numbers of girls who have fallen for them, and they set up CHALLENGES amongst their friends, related to ensnaring specific girls. Are we talking about cold pieces of meat here, wela human beings with feelings and emotions? They talk about them like they are empty vessels, with which to satisfy their carnal desires.
No worries, what goes around, COMES AROUND. Someone, somewhere, has got his filthy sight on your women, ya e5wani fillah. W shratkm, ybahn to satisfy HIS desires. Tr'9oon wela ma tr'9oon, mool ma yhemmeh...
...Just like you don't give a damn when you talk dirty about someone else's women. Low matr'9oon, '39bn 3nkm, you will HAVE to see your female family member(s) SUFFER at the hands of these wolves...w there's NO ONE TO BLAME '3AYRKM.
Lil2asaf eshadeed, some of our misguided brothers yft5roon eb the numbers of girls who have fallen for them, and they set up CHALLENGES amongst their friends, related to ensnaring specific girls. Are we talking about cold pieces of meat here, wela human beings with feelings and emotions? They talk about them like they are empty vessels, with which to satisfy their carnal desires.
No worries, what goes around, COMES AROUND. Someone, somewhere, has got his filthy sight on your women, ya e5wani fillah. W shratkm, ybahn to satisfy HIS desires. Tr'9oon wela ma tr'9oon, mool ma yhemmeh...
...Just like you don't give a damn when you talk dirty about someone else's women. Low matr'9oon, '39bn 3nkm, you will HAVE to see your female family member(s) SUFFER at the hands of these wolves...w there's NO ONE TO BLAME '3AYRKM.
Nsaitow enkm 5alg ALLAH?
Nsaitow ena ho 8ader 3ela kil shay?
Nsaitow...he's watching EVERTHING you do?
Nsaitow..ho y3lem 5wa6rkm, w 7atta elli ENTOW ma tdroon?
Those thoughts that haven't even occurred to you, YET...
MA T5AFOON?
You are inviting the Wrath of Allah upon yourselves, w ma tsh3roon. You - literally - are digging deep ditches for yourselves, out of which you might NEVER come out. All this...for the sake of what? Carnal desires? Are they even WORTH it?
Eta8ullaah..what might seem 'fun' right now, won't seem that way later. I promise you...
I'll end this post, but will pick up from here next time, as this is a pretty 'heavy' discussion. Once again, your comments are definitely valued, however; this place won't be closing down any time soon. A few people's demanding attitude really infuriated me at first, however; this is MY blog, and I do NOT write on demand. Allah ysame7km..w 6b3n I hold nothing against you all. I'd just appreciate if you would weigh your words before speaking. If you like it, al7amdulillah..and if you don't, al7amdulillah; as long as even ONE person gains benefit out of this blog...it stays.
Take care all,
Wes Salam 3lykm wa Ra7matullahi T3ala w barakateh
Nsaitow ena ho 8ader 3ela kil shay?
Nsaitow...he's watching EVERTHING you do?
Nsaitow..ho y3lem 5wa6rkm, w 7atta elli ENTOW ma tdroon?
Those thoughts that haven't even occurred to you, YET...
MA T5AFOON?
You are inviting the Wrath of Allah upon yourselves, w ma tsh3roon. You - literally - are digging deep ditches for yourselves, out of which you might NEVER come out. All this...for the sake of what? Carnal desires? Are they even WORTH it?
Eta8ullaah..what might seem 'fun' right now, won't seem that way later. I promise you...
I'll end this post, but will pick up from here next time, as this is a pretty 'heavy' discussion. Once again, your comments are definitely valued, however; this place won't be closing down any time soon. A few people's demanding attitude really infuriated me at first, however; this is MY blog, and I do NOT write on demand. Allah ysame7km..w 6b3n I hold nothing against you all. I'd just appreciate if you would weigh your words before speaking. If you like it, al7amdulillah..and if you don't, al7amdulillah; as long as even ONE person gains benefit out of this blog...it stays.
Take care all,
Wes Salam 3lykm wa Ra7matullahi T3ala w barakateh
4 comments:
Jazak Allah Khair (For Um3eesa and her Mother too).
I am sry, if i sounded demanding, didnt mean to, sry. Though I certainly hope this still remains as a therapy source to u too, after all its UR blog :) ..as a reader the only thing I can offer in return, is prayers and I'll remember you in mine, inshaAllah!
I really liked the poem, its very true in todays world and almost makes one afraid for the new ones entering a world where they have the choice of interacting with the opposite sex, the media makes it seem 'all too natural' Asta'3firullah.
I do have a qs: Eventho I try to avoid these situations as much as i can, there are times, at my univ when we r forced into 'mixed' groups for projects, where there is no other choice BUT to interact with the guys, is that OK? or should I be more vocal now of why I avoid that too?
wiyach sis! *I'm assumin' you're a sis from the last few lines:p*
NOOOO, you weren't demanding AT ALL! That message was to a few people who had mistaken me for some 'poet by demand' -.- lol! They told me they'd stop reading if I didn't write anymore. It's sorted out tho, al7amdulillah ^_^
you can offer comments, too!;p and any suggestions, like for debate topics, or topics you'd want me to talk about, etc ^_^ I don't mind doing that, really..but I guess I should have drawn the line between that and DEMANDING posts, lol! Altho I'm thinkin' of dumpin the debate idea..it surely seems like a FLOP!
Glad you liked it!:D
yes, unfortunately..it's not only the younger generation that's in danger..this generation, even our ELDERS get tied up into these fitn & fwa7ish! Shay6an spares no one..especially not the religious ones. He puts in TWICE the effort just to see 'em trip.
Aah, sis..you can't avoid a group which has guys, BUT..you make it CLEAR to them; strictly business. Unis try to make a 'workplace environment' and should you choose to work later on, no company is going to agree to 'segregation' just cuz 'you think it ain't right'...you get what i'm sayin'? *Which is why I'd suggest workin' in a n 'all female' place, if you have any plans of working later on*
You could be 'vocal' about it in the 'student body'..so that guys know that she's not the kind to mess around with..but don't argue with professors when it comes to bein' teamed up with the guys. Don't be too friendly and open with the guys either - stick to being this broody, serious chick, so no one crosses your way and goes beyond limits. Hope that helps for now!:D
Salam 3leekm,
You really made me go through most of your posts, trying to find out what was so tragic in your life that made you so so sad?
i question myself to raise this question, thought maybe its too personal, but you talk about it all over your blog, and i can't seem to find the exact tragedy..
w3lykm as salam w Ra7matullahi t3ala w barakateh
*there's only one person i can think of who i know that writes salam 3lykm
like that..*
anyway, ummm..you won't find it anywhere on my blog..the 'exact tragedy' as you put it..^_^
I've had it rough..it's not just one thing..but al7amdulillah, life goes on...
Btw, I'm not sad? O_o there might be a few posts here and there...but its not like my blog killa depressive stuff..wela?
I appreciate your concern,walla..and sorry for compelling you to waste time searching thru my blog for the 'tragic event(s)' =$
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